Here's what it comes down to:
Either I take up my cross daily or I'm really just selling out.
After countless missteps and going in circles and regret and blatantly disobeying God's will by choosing to push aside His urgent nudgings-this is what it comes downs to:
I want to do the hard stuff. The stuff that makes my heart ache because my flesh cries out to disobey. I want to take up my cross daily. I want to suffer in the name of Jesus and obey God simply because I know He is always right in his leadings despite but I feel. And that's the thing: despite what I feel. Because here's the thing, I could feel anything in the world but at the end of the day if feeling that pain, sadness, loneliness, grief, you name it tough emotion brings me closer to the Father and His will, then I'd always choose that kind of suffering over that which comes with being outside of His will.
